I am very much a ‘play it safe’
kind of girl. I do my makeup in exactly the same way every time I get dolled
up, using exactly the same products in exactly the same order – with the
exception of a different lipstick, depending on the outfit I’m wearing. On a
daily basis, when I’m not working, I stick to jeans and a nice top, making sure
to go slightly overboard on a night out. I structure my days in the same way –
I get home from work and have a ‘break’ until 7pm every day, then finish off
whatever planning or resourcing needs doing for the day. We eat at a similar
time each evening and I go to bed around the same time as well. I like my
routine and, generally speaking, it works well.


In spite of this, I know I can
live in a much less restrictive way. I realise that some of my habits mean that
I am a little bit too structured in
how I act, and a lot of change stresses me out and makes me feel incredibly
anxious. I love fashion and I love clothes, and buying clothes that are a little
bit ‘out there’ is something that I like to do, then promptly return because I
stress far too much about what other people think about what I’m wearing.


CO-ORD: Miss Selfridge (here) TOP: River Island (here)

One of my recent goals is to care
less about what other people think, and concentrate on my own happiness. If I
want to wear something that’s completely out of my comfort zone, then I’m going
to do it. I ordered this absolutely gorgeous co-ord suit from Miss Selfridge
last week and my initial reaction was to send it straight back. The colour is a
beautiful lemon yellow that stands out like nothing I’ve ever worn before-
which of course, was part of the problem. My instinct towards wearing black and
neutral colours – aka, safe and boring – kicked in. Even my boyfriend asked
when I’d have the chance to wear something so bold.

The answer to that question?
Whenever I want to.


I’ve realised that actually, no
one really cares what other people wear for longer than a few seconds. I’m
trying to approach life with a much more laid-back attitude and quite frankly,
I’ve stopped caring what other people think of me, what I wear and what I do.
It’s a hard attitude and stance to follow as it’s human nature to care what
other people think but I do think that I am starting to see the benefits of it.
By no means am I completely void of feeling and this is absolutely not a quick
fix to the feelings that I have when I’m placed in unfamiliar  territory but my point here is that if I enjoy
something and I like the way something looks on me, then it’s absolutely no one
else’s business except my own. That’s the way I’m going to approach things from
this day onward.

This suit? Yes, it’s lemon
yellow. Yes, it’s definitely not something I’d normally wear. But you know
what? It’s incredibly comfortable, it’s lightweight so would be absolutely
perfect in the summer and to be quite honest with you? 
I think I look great. And that, my dear friends, is all
that matters.